I feel like I never really say how blessed I know I am. After 15 years of ups and downs, struggles, hardships, good and bad times, memorable and forgettable moments, I can still sit down and list a thousand little things about my husband that I love, that I hate to live a moment without.

I guess being apart has its advantages and disadvantages. You get to visually see the things that you know you’ve missed all along but couldn’t quite put your finger on what exactly it was you were missing.

I may add to this as I walk around and am reminded of more stuff. A lot of it is silly small stuff, but it’s huge when it’s not there. A lot of it just speaks to the kind of man he is.

Being in his presence makes me feel grounded. Normal. Calm. When we’re apart I feel like a disheveled mess, even though I try to keep it together as best I can, that part of me that is him is missing.

I can do laundry over a couple of days and leave it in the laundry room. I take it into the bedroom to start folding it, procrastinate, leave the room, and ten minutes later he tells me it’s done, all folded and put away. Something that I dread, that takes me half hour to do, he just does it.

When we get up in the morning, if he’s been in the kitchen before I get there, he always puts one of my favorite mugs next to the coffee pot.

In the car, he’ll reach over and takes my hand, and hold my hand while we’re driving.

When I go outside, if I’m out for a couple of minutes he’ll come out and join me.

He’s so appreciative of the little things that I do, when I feel like it doesn’t even compare to the little things that he does.

He is so wonderful with the girls. He interacts with them in such a loving, caring and curious way. He is their friend as much as their father. He memorizes everything about each of their personalities as much as he’s memorized everything about me.

I know I will be adding more. I hope that from reading this you are motivated to just take a day to notice the things about your spouse that you love and would miss if you had to live without them for any period of time. I really believe that seeing these things, writing them down or just knowing how they affect you will enhance your relationship and make the little negative things that can sometimes consume us just melt away.

Sigh. It takes a few days to get back into the groove. Bear with me, crumpled up tissues and all, I still have 5 months worth of goals to achieve.

xoxoxo
~me