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  • Almost My Birthday


    In a few days, I’m going to turn 36. My countdown always begins on New Years Day, since I’m a January baby and terrible at math, it makes my life easier. (Thanks, mom!)

    Chickeymonkey has been on the ball this year with reminders about how many days until my birthday, and she’s been terribly secretive about what she’s gonna get me. I’ve asked. I’ve begged, I’ve pleaded. She’s zipped and I’m left to wonder. Will it be a crayola cake on non-edible paper? Or a purple tulip drawing akin to my monkey card where I doodled and wrote a card for her that said “Roses are red, Violets are blue, You are a MONKEY and (eye) (heart) U!”

    So I wonder. The minds of my children are spinning creatively with “what do we get Mommy?” and I love it. I love seeing their eyes sparkle and shine with a twinge of deviousness, keeping a secret from me. There’s nothing better.

    Still, part of me wants stuff. I do. I’ll always cave to the kid in me that wants to make a list and give it to my own mommy, you know? This year, it’d go something like this.

    Dear Mom,

    I know you can’t afford much this year, and I know you’re probably not going to make the early morning trip to the grocery store followed by a 2 1/2 hour drive to my place just to prepare my Birthday Lasagna, but I want you to know how cool I think that would be, and how a little part of me still hopes you’ll do that – even though it hasn’t happened since my 18th birthday. Thanks for making my birthdays special, even though you’re the one who did all the work.

    I know I’m really old now, and birthday presents are a rarity, but here’s the deal. I want some stuff, and I don’t know how to get the stuff. Since you’ve got a few years on me, maybe this year you could just give me tips and tricks, a little motherly wisdom, and I’ll be all set.

      1. I want the bruised relationships of certain people in my life to be healed. I want to not be the one to have to hold hands and lead people to one another, I want to see people take initiative to make things that are wrong right, and just do it. I want this to happen magically, overnight if possible, so that I can wake up the day after my birthday and hear that bridges have been rebuilt and are better than before.

      2. I want Catybug to not put so much pressure on herself to be the A+ kid. She’s turning into a perfectionist, like her mother, and I want her to ease up on herself. I’d love for this to happen overnight, too. I’d like to wake up Monday morning and know that whatever test she has, she’s totally fine with doing her best, and I’d like her to know that I’m totally fine with that, too.

      3. I’d like it if I could start getting the words out again. I have so much I want to say, but I care too much about having an opinion that might offend. I’d like to find that balance between caring and being brutally honest.

      4. I want my property back. I don’t want garbage leaning up on my big expensive fence, and I don’t want dogs peeing on it, either. Please tell the surveyor to hurry up, and to consider working for a trade.

      5. I want to not be so nervous about exhibiting my paintings. I want to humbly hang my work and not think or stress every day that if someone doesn’t like something, that it’s any kind of reflection on me personally.

      6. I want my hair to be really long. Please send magic potion.

      7. I’d like for my finances to make sense in my head. I’d like to open up the budget and know exactly how to make the impact I need to make in all of the right places, and I’d love for God to continue to provide for us and allow us to continue heading in the right direction.

      8. I really would like Lasagna for dinner on my birthday. Really. And german chocolate cake. Chickeymonkey wants to see how many 36 candles are. Just between you and me, I kinda do, too.

    So there’s my list, mom. I think it’s affordable, I just don’t think that my 36 years have given me enough time to figure all that stuff out yet, not on my own, anyway. (Okay I can figure out the lasagna and cake, but that’s really much better coming from you.)

    Thanks again, mom, for the 9 months and 18 years of dealing with my crazy antics (before I moved out and you didn’t have to take responsibility for them anymore). Thanks for being proud of me even when I feel like I’m failing.


    So there you have it, my pre-birthday wish list. There are a few days left, plenty of time to thoughtfully consider it and make some of this stuff happen, right?

    I’ll let you know how it turns out.


    Ooopsadazie said,

    :good: I LOVE this blog. Your #1 and #3 wishes would definitely be on my list as well. Good luck with getting your birthday wishes.

    :thanku: for stopping by my newly created blog & my first T13. The tattoo I want to get first is a memorial tattoo for my daddy. He passed away in ’99 and I’ve picked out a celtic cross with a Claddagh, since we are Irish. I’ve been wanting a tattoo since I was 19, but never found the right time to spend the money on myself. Don’t really have it now either, but I made one of my goals for ’07 to do more things for myself.

    :wave: Now that I’ve written a book in your comment space, I’m gonna sign off. See you again soon. Your site is beautiful, so I’ll be visiting often.

    1.12.2007 @ 10:29 am
    Tommi said,

    I don’t think your birthday wishes are unheard of! I like them. And I love the idea of mom making you lasagna and cake w/36 candles on your b-day!!! Hmmmmm……… :iloveu:

    1.12.2007 @ 11:40 am
    Mom said,

    :o HEY!!! Why all the pressure on me?????? :confused:

    1.12.2007 @ 12:04 pm
    Mom said,

    Well, that didn’t turn out right…. Your little “guys” don’t like to work together, I guess… :brickwall:

    1.12.2007 @ 12:07 pm
    d said,

    oh dear, I wish you all of those things for your birthday – maybe making your own bday lasagne with mom’s recipe would be a nice start? Happy Happy, I’m a year and a month ahead of you!

    1.12.2007 @ 12:45 pm
    pamibe said,

    Happy Birthday a little early! Don’t worry, Moms love letters like this one… :winking:

    1.12.2007 @ 1:26 pm
    Laura said,

    Oh, if only more people could read #1 on your list and see themselves in it..I’d like to mail copies of it to certain people that I know, too. I won’t, but I’d like to. lol

    #3 and #7 …I think you got into my head!! My thoughts exactly!

    For my 40th birthday several years ago (ok, let’s just say that one was ONLY a few years ago! LOL),,,,,, my daughters made soap from a kit. Lots of soap. It was poured into molds and all kinds of colors were used to make it. Um, some very “interesting colors” were discovered that day. I have never opened up so many bars of soap in my life…LOL that was pretty much my 40th bday, but they were so excited about this soap that uh… Well only a mom would understand. ;)

    In any event,, I hope you get your lasagna and german chocolate cake, and get to lick the bowl with all the frosting too. Happy Early Bday, Leanne! 36 will be a great year for you, seriously!! ;)

    1.12.2007 @ 8:56 pm
    Lolo said,

    Happy early Birthday ((young ady)) I would SOOOOO make you a delish Lasagne!
    I would!

    1.12.2007 @ 9:09 pm
    Lolo said,

    ady = Lady ;)


    1.12.2007 @ 9:09 pm
    Raehan said,

    You are a downright youngster.

    Dear Leanne’s Mom,

    I want Leanne to wake up on her birthday and realize that her anxieties and perfectionist are what make her the lovely, creative woman that we love today. And that her daughter will turn out as beautifully creative as she did angst and all.

    But I also want Leanne’s daughter to be free of angst and wish that for Leanne, too.

    I would like you to make Leanne lasagne and chocolate cake for her birthday.

    I would like Leanne to feel that she is freed of the responsibility of healing other people’s broken relationships. Yes, free!

    I would like Leanne to know that none of us are accomplishing all that we want to be accomplishing and that her words are beautiful already and more will come when they are ready to come.

    I want Leanne to know that Hannah wanted long hair for her birthday, too, and it’s overrated.

    I want Leanne to know that she is just loverly.

    Best Wishes,


    1.12.2007 @ 10:48 pm
    Erika said,

    Happy Birthday Lasagna Ady!!!! I’d love to eat lasagna with you :) Love you!

    1.12.2007 @ 11:38 pm
    Sarcasmom said,

    What a great list of wishes. I have a january baby too, She is most creative, like you. Must be you Aquarians. happy birthday, whichever January day it is.

    1.13.2007 @ 6:10 am
    Mom said,

    My Dear Daughter,
    I wish all good things for you now as I have for the past 36.75 years. I wish I could heal all of your bruised relationships and that everyone in the world would love you as much as I. I wish you the “courage to change the things you can, accept the things you can’t change, and the wisdom to know the difference”, and I wish you the “Peace that passes all understanding” so you will have a life full of joy and love. You have that around you now, accept it, be happy in it – you have so much more than others. I wish you many birthday wishes from those people that truely love you and never share that. God bless you, and I thank Him for you. And – if He wasn’t already taking care of your finances, you wouldn’t have that fence that the neighbor’s dog uses as a latrine! Go ahead and say it! As for #2 – just keep assuring her of your acceptance – she’ll get it sooner or later… #3 – If you think about it and try to put it into loving words, then feel free to say it – if it’s said in love, noone should be offended because it will come out right.
    I did make you lasagna for your birthday and brought it in the trunk of my car in the roaster – 6 or 7 years ago – I remember….
    I’ll make you lasagna and cake and bring it to you next weekend – sorry…
    I love you!

    1.13.2007 @ 7:43 am
    Leanne said,

    Either my memory is worse than my mother’s, or her imagination is wilder than mine.


    1.13.2007 @ 8:05 am
    Tommi said,

    Iremember when we brought that lasagna to her!! She was so excited!! How fun that was!
    Next weekend we’ll do it again!!

    1.13.2007 @ 11:17 am
    Leanne said,

    I’m seriously losing my mind then. Was I pregnant?!?!?!

    1.13.2007 @ 11:30 am

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