In case you didn’t notice, I’ve been in a funk the last few days. I knew that before Mark got home that there would be an adjustment period both emotionally and financially. Some days are more surreal than others, and I think the surreal days really throw me for a loop.

I started working on Rusty’s portrait late last week. I had scheduled him to begin and end during the week, and now that’s all out of whack. That bugs me, since I’m pretty schedule-oriented when it comes to painting. Now I feel like I am not ready to go back to him yet and finish him, something happened and now there’s a hurdle I must climb.

I stopped to work on Adriana’s portrait, and Mark came home from work just as I was getting ready to paint. It threw me off a little bit, because I now have self-imposed guilt for painting during the little time we have together now that he’s back on the road. When I finished, I didn’t like the result. Some of you may have seen the pic of the painting I posted, but after looking at it the following morning I was really disappointed with myself and how it turned out, so I pulled the entry here and am going to re-paint her in a different color scheme.

Mark home = more food in the house = Leanne has munchies. That has really and very literally weighed me down. I started treadmilling routinely last week and increased my water intake again, when The Man is around, I let everything slide and I can’t let myself do that. I think that’s the crux of my funk, when I feel yicky it reflects in every single thing I do.

I lost my focus! EEK!

So now I am figuring out what I’m gonna do. I did place my order for the canvas I need to work on another portrait this week, that should be here tomorrow. I’m not quite ready to get back to Rusty, I am still painting Adriana (in her new color scheme) in my head. I have plenty of paintings scheduled, a lot of them coming up here are the little ones, the 4×4’s of assorted goodies. I’m inclined to get them all sketched and have them all in front of me, that tends to feed my artistic appetite.

Well, there you have it. I am going to try to go get inspired!! Clean some brushes, sketch some canvas, and crank some tunes.

Hope you have a good one!